Submerged

*I am NOT pro eating disorder/ana/mia. I am pro healthy weight loss; even though my eating habits may not be healthy.*

A little about me: I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder because I keep my habits very private, and am not currently in therapy. I have been diagnosed with depression and a mood disorder. I cut, purge, and heavily restrict. For now, this is the way that I am able to tolerate living. I am obtaining control and it feels really good. I am here to support you, and I would love to get to know you.
This is my private and personal blog, I have a main blog, if you would like the link don't hesitate to ask!

Submerged

freaking out

I am about to spiral into some sort of panic attack

I cut so deep I can see the fat bulging and just a;lksj;gh its so disgusting. THAT is what I’m made of. FAT FAT FAT. literally, layers of disgusting, yellow, bulging fat and I want it OUT

but I cut so high and no pants are going to cover it, and I’m never going to be able to wear a normal length top..I’m out of large bandages, and its going to be a mess in school. FUCK I don’t know what to do. I have no one. I wish this had been my wrist, then this dumb fucking rant wouldn’t exist. I wouldn’t exist. Holy shit. I can’t do this.

@1 year ago with 24 notes
#cutting #oh shit #what the fuck have I done #FAT #COW #personal

freaking out

I am about to spiral into some sort of panic attack

I cut so deep I can see the fat bulging and just a;lksj;gh its so disgusting. THAT is what I’m made of. FAT FAT FAT. literally, layers of disgusting, yellow, bulging fat and I want it OUT

but I cut so high and no pants are going to cover it, and I’m never going to be able to wear a normal length top..I’m out of large bandages, and its going to be a mess in school. FUCK I don’t know what to do. I have no one. I wish this had been my wrist, then this dumb fucking rant wouldn’t exist. I wouldn’t exist. Holy shit. I can’t do this.

1 year ago
#cutting #oh shit #what the fuck have I done #FAT #COW #personal