feeling so fucking pathetic and depressed and irritable and disgusting. The fucking scale is apparently broken. It keeps taunting me with numbers that I’ll never be. With numbers I’ve only dreamed about. And I keep stepping on and off and it stays on a really low one, and then will jump up really really really high back to my actual weight. Its actually the most heart breaking thing ever and so I took a lot of sleeping pills.

@10 months ago with 1 note
#fuck this #fat #disgusting #failure #scale #piece of shit #personal 

MUST NOT BINGE MUST NOT BINGE MUST NOT BINGE MUST NOT BINGE

@1 year ago
#I'm already so fat why do I even want to? #so disgusting #pig #fat #diet #binge #personal 

FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT

What do I have to do to make that change? Why is it so hard? I am a failure but I HAVE to beat this. I have to. 

@1 year ago with 2 notes
#personal #FAT #pig #disgusting piece of shiiit 

I’m starting to seriously hate being in any type of social situations. I feel a pressure to eat, and when I’m with my friends they always sort of force food on me, shower me with compliments so that I feel the compulsion to eat/like its ok to eat huuuge quantities to shut them up or something. It sucks so much. I want to be alone all the time so I can eat how I want…

@1 year ago with 6 notes
#food #fat #disgusting #personal 
e-ma-ci-ate: Why the fuck do you still eat, bitch?

e-ma-ci-ate:

Why the fuck do you still eat, bitch?

(via disordered-eating)

@11 months ago with 1056 notes
#me #sorry for reblogging myself #fat #ugly #disgusting #worthless #bitch #pathetic 

I feel like so much shit. Pure, undiluted disgusting shit. Fuck this. No one cares, and thats fine. I just…FUCK.

@1 year ago
#fuck #fuck #fuck #personal #FAT #FAILURE 

freaking out

I am about to spiral into some sort of panic attack

I cut so deep I can see the fat bulging and just a;lksj;gh its so disgusting. THAT is what I’m made of. FAT FAT FAT. literally, layers of disgusting, yellow, bulging fat and I want it OUT

but I cut so high and no pants are going to cover it, and I’m never going to be able to wear a normal length top..I’m out of large bandages, and its going to be a mess in school. FUCK I don’t know what to do. I have no one. I wish this had been my wrist, then this dumb fucking rant wouldn’t exist. I wouldn’t exist. Holy shit. I can’t do this.

@1 year ago with 24 notes
#cutting #oh shit #what the fuck have I done #FAT #COW #personal 

how do I expect to lose weight if I eat as much as I do? I constantly complain about how fat I am, but I sit on my fat ass and stuff my face with food. I need to take this seriously if I want to be taken seriously.

I ate around 1000 calories today, but at least I burned about 400. Not good enough. Not even close, but tomorrow will be better.

anyone want to hold me accountable?

@1 year ago with 6 notes
#weightloss #lets get serious #food #personal #fat 

feeling so fucking pathetic and depressed and irritable and disgusting. The fucking scale is apparently broken. It keeps taunting me with numbers that I’ll never be. With numbers I’ve only dreamed about. And I keep stepping on and off and it stays on a really low one, and then will jump up really really really high back to my actual weight. Its actually the most heart breaking thing ever and so I took a lot of sleeping pills.

10 months ago
#fuck this #fat #disgusting #failure #scale #piece of shit #personal 
e-ma-ci-ate: Why the fuck do you still eat, bitch?
11 months ago
#me #sorry for reblogging myself #fat #ugly #disgusting #worthless #bitch #pathetic 

MUST NOT BINGE MUST NOT BINGE MUST NOT BINGE MUST NOT BINGE

1 year ago
#I'm already so fat why do I even want to? #so disgusting #pig #fat #diet #binge #personal 

I feel like so much shit. Pure, undiluted disgusting shit. Fuck this. No one cares, and thats fine. I just…FUCK.

1 year ago
#fuck #fuck #fuck #personal #FAT #FAILURE 

FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT

What do I have to do to make that change? Why is it so hard? I am a failure but I HAVE to beat this. I have to. 

1 year ago
#personal #FAT #pig #disgusting piece of shiiit 
freaking out

I am about to spiral into some sort of panic attack

I cut so deep I can see the fat bulging and just a;lksj;gh its so disgusting. THAT is what I’m made of. FAT FAT FAT. literally, layers of disgusting, yellow, bulging fat and I want it OUT

but I cut so high and no pants are going to cover it, and I’m never going to be able to wear a normal length top..I’m out of large bandages, and its going to be a mess in school. FUCK I don’t know what to do. I have no one. I wish this had been my wrist, then this dumb fucking rant wouldn’t exist. I wouldn’t exist. Holy shit. I can’t do this.

1 year ago
#cutting #oh shit #what the fuck have I done #FAT #COW #personal 

I’m starting to seriously hate being in any type of social situations. I feel a pressure to eat, and when I’m with my friends they always sort of force food on me, shower me with compliments so that I feel the compulsion to eat/like its ok to eat huuuge quantities to shut them up or something. It sucks so much. I want to be alone all the time so I can eat how I want…

1 year ago
#food #fat #disgusting #personal 

how do I expect to lose weight if I eat as much as I do? I constantly complain about how fat I am, but I sit on my fat ass and stuff my face with food. I need to take this seriously if I want to be taken seriously.

I ate around 1000 calories today, but at least I burned about 400. Not good enough. Not even close, but tomorrow will be better.

anyone want to hold me accountable?

1 year ago
#weightloss #lets get serious #food #personal #fat