feeling so fucking pathetic and depressed and irritable and disgusting. The fucking scale is apparently broken. It keeps taunting me with numbers that I’ll never be. With numbers I’ve only dreamed about. And I keep stepping on and off and it stays on a really low one, and then will jump up really really really high back to my actual weight. Its actually the most heart breaking thing ever and so I took a lot of sleeping pills.

@10 months ago with 1 note
#fuck this #fat #disgusting #failure #scale #piece of shit #personal 

I feel like so much shit. Pure, undiluted disgusting shit. Fuck this. No one cares, and thats fine. I just…FUCK.

@1 year ago
#fuck #fuck #fuck #personal #FAT #FAILURE 

that awkward moment when I try to fast but then get hungry and eat. 

@1 year ago
#whyy am I such a failure? #I blame it on the genes #fasting #diets #failure #personal 

HUGE binge. I think I just ate the most I have in WEEKS. I hate myself so much. why can’t I just control myself? This only makes me feel like shit. I don’t even deserve to purge. I WILL fast tomorrow. I would aim to fast for 3 days, but I probably won’t even be able to do tomorrow. I’m a fucking worthless, pathetic piece of SHIT.

@1 year ago with 1 note
#personal #binge #failure