feeling so fucking pathetic and depressed and irritable and disgusting. The fucking scale is apparently broken. It keeps taunting me with numbers that I’ll never be. With numbers I’ve only dreamed about. And I keep stepping on and off and it stays on a really low one, and then will jump up really really really high back to my actual weight. Its actually the most heart breaking thing ever and so I took a lot of sleeping pills.

@10 months ago with 1 note
#fuck this #fat #disgusting #failure #scale #piece of shit #personal 

to purge or not to purge…I am seriously considering taking hardcore dangerous drugs just to make myself puke because I’m too much of a fucking coward to do it myself. 

@1 year ago
#purge #drugs #disgusting #personal 

I am so incredibly DISGUSTING. I try so hard and FAIL every fucking day. this morning I gained 2 whole pounds, and today I’ve already had close to 300 calories. No wonder I’m such a fat peice of shit. I am tempted to not let myself go out tonight, I know I’ll just fail, and gorge and be even fatter than I already am, but I’m a selfish pig, and will do it anyway because I have NO self control. I need more motivation. Looking in the mirror should be enough, but apparently its not.

@1 year ago with 1 note
#I am such a failure #disgusting #fat cow #personal 
e-ma-ci-ate: Why the fuck do you still eat, bitch?

e-ma-ci-ate:

Why the fuck do you still eat, bitch?

(via disordered-eating)

@11 months ago with 1056 notes
#me #sorry for reblogging myself #fat #ugly #disgusting #worthless #bitch #pathetic 

I’m starting to seriously hate being in any type of social situations. I feel a pressure to eat, and when I’m with my friends they always sort of force food on me, shower me with compliments so that I feel the compulsion to eat/like its ok to eat huuuge quantities to shut them up or something. It sucks so much. I want to be alone all the time so I can eat how I want…

@1 year ago with 6 notes
#food #fat #disgusting #personal 

feeling so fucking pathetic and depressed and irritable and disgusting. The fucking scale is apparently broken. It keeps taunting me with numbers that I’ll never be. With numbers I’ve only dreamed about. And I keep stepping on and off and it stays on a really low one, and then will jump up really really really high back to my actual weight. Its actually the most heart breaking thing ever and so I took a lot of sleeping pills.

10 months ago
#fuck this #fat #disgusting #failure #scale #piece of shit #personal 
e-ma-ci-ate: Why the fuck do you still eat, bitch?
11 months ago
#me #sorry for reblogging myself #fat #ugly #disgusting #worthless #bitch #pathetic 

to purge or not to purge…I am seriously considering taking hardcore dangerous drugs just to make myself puke because I’m too much of a fucking coward to do it myself. 

1 year ago
#purge #drugs #disgusting #personal 

I’m starting to seriously hate being in any type of social situations. I feel a pressure to eat, and when I’m with my friends they always sort of force food on me, shower me with compliments so that I feel the compulsion to eat/like its ok to eat huuuge quantities to shut them up or something. It sucks so much. I want to be alone all the time so I can eat how I want…

1 year ago
#food #fat #disgusting #personal 

I am so incredibly DISGUSTING. I try so hard and FAIL every fucking day. this morning I gained 2 whole pounds, and today I’ve already had close to 300 calories. No wonder I’m such a fat peice of shit. I am tempted to not let myself go out tonight, I know I’ll just fail, and gorge and be even fatter than I already am, but I’m a selfish pig, and will do it anyway because I have NO self control. I need more motivation. Looking in the mirror should be enough, but apparently its not.

1 year ago
#I am such a failure #disgusting #fat cow #personal