feeling so fucking pathetic and depressed and irritable and disgusting. The fucking scale is apparently broken. It keeps taunting me with numbers that I’ll never be. With numbers I’ve only dreamed about. And I keep stepping on and off and it stays on a really low one, and then will jump
@10 months ago with 1 note
#fuck this #fat #disgusting #failure #scale #piece of shit #personal
up really really really high back to my actual weight. Its actually the most heart breaking thing ever and so I took a lot of sleeping pills.
to purge or not to purge…I am seriously considering taking hardcore dangerous drugs just to make myself puke because I’m too much of a fucking coward to do it myself.
@1 year ago
#purge #drugs #disgusting #personal
I am so incredibly DISGUSTING. I try so hard and FAIL every fucking day. this morning I gained 2 whole pounds, and today I’ve already had close to 300 calories. No wonder I’m such a fat peice of shit. I am tempted to not let myself go out tonight, I know I’ll just fail, and gorge and be even fatter than I already am, but I’m a selfish pig, and will do it anyway because I have NO self control. I need more motivation. Looking in the mirror should be enough, but apparently its not.
@1 year ago with 1 note
#I am such a failure #disgusting #fat cow #personal